Are Dreams Meant to Come True?
Do you believe that we should have dreams? I think everyone has dreams at some point, but for some, they get killed during their lifetimes, while for others, they are achieved and developed to a high level. For me, it's writing!
I started writing stories as soon as I learned how to write. I remember having a lot of imagination, and I could write for hours, creating worlds that never existed before. But as I got older, I lost my passion and imagination to the mundane tasks of chores and jobs. After a while, when I finally had the time to pursue my dream of writing a book, I was scared to fail, so I couldn't start.
Living in the misery of constant unhappiness was easier than risking something I loved. It takes a lot of courage to put in a lot of work for oneself, and the overthinking about achieving the dream and the cheer and joy of success wouldn't stop in my mind for thousands and thousands of times. But I couldn't. I just couldn't. It is so scary to leave the comfort zone.
There were times when I let myself explore, see, search, and learn, but that was just another misery loop that never ended. I got stuck in it, and now the consuming thought of how to start became my new comfort zone. The cage of fears was full of judgments from others, exposing too much of myself, not being good enough, not getting enough attention or reviews, or what others would think.
How can I free myself to feel free, not trapped in that cage, and finally step into the real courtyard? I thought some people are not good enough to achieve their dreams, that they don't deserve it, and some are far better than me, and I would never be like them. That was the next loop of being in misery. After a while, being happy became a term that seemed more and more unachievable to me. I am unhappy because I don't start. I do want to start to be happy, but I can't because I am afraid of losing.
I finally reached the bottom of myself, and in that place, there was nothing to lose. I couldn't be more unhappy than I was, so let's begin the journey!
